Mixing dreams and reality...
Sun, 11/05/2006 - 01:18 | nullpuppy
I've been meaning to write something here for the last few days. It's not quite midnight, on Saturday, so what better time to post...
The last week or so has been interesting. Work has been reasonably busy, and not the most enjoyable at times. And general life just hasn't had the usual pizazz. And I keep thinking of Michelle. I don't know why, but I just can't keep her out of my head. And, at this point, I really don't know what I want, or when I may be ready to really move on. I've met some new, cool people recently, and have contacted, and tried to contact old friends, which is definately helping in some areas, but still lacking in others.
Beyond that, I have recently come to the decision, that I want to go back to school. I'm not sure I really want to go back to "school," in the traditional sense, but I think I'm finally ready to actually tackle a degree. The retail and support industry has really sapped my life force, and I'm ready to move on, and hopefully get into the field I want to be on: Software Engineering. Well, more specifically, I want to pursue research and development in the area of artificial intelligence and, to an extent, gaming. But, in order to pursue these goals, I unfortunately, need to (finally) go take the SAT. Why did I not take it years ago? I really don't know. I should have. But, here I am, 23, nearly 24, and registered to go take a college entrance test. I'm not terribly worried about it, but am a little nervous. Not really sure why though.
Regardless, I'm not sure how things are going to play out just yet. Nanowrimo started a few days ago, and I have yet to write a word. So much stuff going on, and so much to do without enough time to do it in. In some ways, I'm glad I'm single again, and taking this on, but that doesn't make it hurt any less.
Some things are finally falling into place. But I really have no idea where I'm going, or what I should be doing. Two months ago, I would have told you I had a pretty good idea. Now? I'm playing it all by ear, and don't know where fate is going to take me.
I used to be okay with not having a plan, and living day to day. But now, I just feel lost. I feel like I'm on the right path, but something is missing, and I'm not sure what it is.
--nullpuppy(out)
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