I fail at trying to blog even remotely often. Sometimes I get a few posts in within a fairly short amount of time, sometimes it takes nine months before anything pushes me to write.
I've long since wanted to turn this blog into something more technical oriented, but I think I'm going to abandon that desire, and instead use my other domain, dukn.net, that has long been unused, and abused for random stuff, I'll be posting some stuff there soon, though soon could be weeks from now.
I think I need to post something rather personal now. I have fought so hard for so long to try and keep myself in check and rely on my own drive to keep me moving forward, but I have often run into bouts of mild to severe depression, or at least what I assume as such. Recently, another such intense down has hit me, and I'm realized that I cannot do this on my own anymore. I try so hard to be self sufficient, but I have held myself back by not seeking proper help. That's going to change. I'm not sure how I'm going to manage to do this, but I have gotten advice from both close friends and nearly complete strangers that I think I might finally have a chance on turning this around and getting my life on the track I want it to be on.
I have known for a couple years that I should probably seek out something to help keep me focused, but as I sit here typing this out now, I know I've waited for too long, and have let myself suffer far too much.
Thank you for listening to me rambling, and venting. And if you didn't read this far, that's cool too. I just needed to write something.